the new year 2009
| December 31, 2008 | Posted by caroline under personal, storytelling, Uncategorized |
a thousand words, they say, will keep the crazies at bay..
The world is celebrating the New Year, 2009, bringing it in with a bit of subdued joy. The past year has been tumultuous. I’ve come across a poem, and heard a sonnet, both referring to the different economic scandals and political big whigs that have graced our headlines. A lot of people I know are staying in, avoiding the extreme cold alert on Toronto’s streets. Others are visiting the always dependendable, immovable Nathan Phillips Square. One group of girlfriends are organizing a candlelight vigil at the Israeli consulate on Bloor against the current bloodshed in Gaza at the hands of the Israeli army. It will take place between 11:50pm and 12:15am..
I must say that I was pleased to read that so many Arab countries are coming together in support of the current Palestinian situation, which is getting more dire by the day. I didn’t expect it, to be honest.
I never know what to do on December 31st. Frankly, I feel completely neutral and indifferent to the day. Moreso than any other day of the year. It’s literally a day in limbo. I can’t get anything done cause everyone’s off and I can’t go too crazy cause I just don’t see the point. I really, really don’t. 
..Let me figure out, now, how I’ve spent my past few NYEs
2007-2008-> Goa, dancefloor
2006-2007->selling these light up toys at nathan phillips square, then running around trying to take photos at different events and make some $$..ended up stuck in the rain, in a storm..with an old friend..wishing e/other happy New year..hah..then onwards to play some pool and drink…that was probably the best one
2005-2006-> dance floor, Goa, with my parents
2004-2005->in a car, on the corner of queen and bay in toronto..by myself..i was in mourning, as my aunt passed away just a few days prior
2003-2004->this was my first year of university, i had an NYE party at my family’s old, empty and unfurnished house in Scarborough.. definitely memorable, for more reasons than one..
2002-2003->i believe i drove around Toronto with my cousin, ran down church street and pranced around with randoms all night..fell down the stairs of the Westin Harbour Castle..flirted
2001-2002->i went to a GOA dance with my best friend and whatnot
2000-2001->some dance with the parents
and the rest was family events that i can’t recall..after a while, the years blur and fade into one collective past..
I can’t say much for 2008. I learned a lot, on an individual level. I think I attained that confidence I was searching for, somehow, much to the disdain of my bank account. I didn’t think I’d ever have to pay to work. But I did. I learned a lot about how the corporate world works, the steely, well-oiled machine of man. And I learned there’s very little to lose. I had this fear, before, that the world is bigger than it is, and tougher than it is. I put aside many of my interests, picking and choosing the most important. But I realized that wasn’t necessarily the right way. Finally, I’ve gathered the experience as well as the B/S that one needs to get through this sometimes horrid affair of life. Oh, and in the last days of 2008, I laid my eggs in a basket that slips neatly into a cool, safe place. I feel pretty good right now, to be honest. Better than I’ve felt over the past two months of this year.
